taiwan electric co.
baguio
july 8, 1944


my dear fely,

it had taken me quite long to decide to write again because in your last letter you expressed the doubt whether we should keep on with our correspondence. but i thought it over and decided that i wouldn't be the one to stop it. afterall, i wrote the first letter and i'm going to write the last one too. if you don't wish to correspond with me anymore, then i'll understand and you won't have to answer this letter.

fely, just in case this will be the last you'll hear from me - that is, if you'll write finis to our pleasant (at least it is on my part) exchange of letters - then i hope you won't mind if i make this letter quite a long one. please don't get bored and lend a sympathetic ear (or is it "eye") to me. i'll be very thankful if you do.

thru all the years, i had been looking for someone in whom i can confide all my troubles but there didn't seem to be anyone whom i could annoy so. perhaps i didn't have the right to bother anybody, for that matter. of course, not for a single moment did i forget you, the sweet-natured and very understanding person that you are, and i can't explain it but i felt quite sure that i could com to you crying like a baby and you would soothe and comfort me. i wish to make it clear here that it was not conceit at all on my part - i just felt so, that's all, and i never had the same feeling with regards to anyone else. you know, fely, i'm not the type that would let pride dominate my other feelings, and so i did my best to locate you because i very well knew that in hou i could find the very thing that was lacking in my life. quite a selfish reason for wanting to find you, i must admit, but at the same time, my desire to come to you humbly and ask for a thousand pardons for what had passed was as sincere and as strong as the reason. any other girl in your place will certainly send to h- someone with a nerve like me coming to you like this after i had done something which was most unfair. no one can really be repentant unless he has the courage to ask for forgiveness from the one he has wronged, and that is the reason why i am coming to you now with bowed head and a humble heart.

besides, i believe that one should admit a mistake because admission is the first step in the process of correcting it. how i wish that i could be with you so i can prove how much i mean these words. i know that telling you over and over again that i'm sorry will get tiresome and monotonous for you, so i'm praying that the day will come when i can be where you are and show you how i really feel.

since you think it improper for us to be writing each other, i am going to close this letter with one request, and that is for you to please believe me and if i should have the good fortune of meeting you again someday, will you please allow me to make amends? but should we never meet again, these being very uncertain, please know that i am thanking heaven for people like you and that i shall remember you to the last moment. i shall be praying for the best for you and your family.


yours always,
ely









to be continued...