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Monday, February 21, 2005
Letters: chapter 3 part 1
baguio
april 24,1944
my darling,
i'm home once more on awol (it' got to be) and everything's fine except that you're not at the door to welcome me. i've got to go back to the mountains tomorrow and maybe in a week's time our outfit will be down lowlands. it will be harder to escape then because all the big bosses will be with us in the same camp. however, i'll move heaven and earth to get a furlough and come to see you.
you know, honey, i've always though that v-day will bring me one of the happiest days of my life. well, it did. but now i find out that f-day (f stands for fely) will be the happiest day of my life. darling, i could hardly wait to see you. now that the war is over, there's nothing that would be more important to me than seeing ou and loving you for always.
believe me, if i can't get a furlough by legal means, i'm coming to see you anyway, by hook or by crook. i won't care if i get a dishonorable discharge for doing so, but i've got to see you somehow. besides, my one ambition now - of course next to having you become as mrs. me - is to get out of the army and be a civilian again. so it won't really make much of a difference if i got discharged on your account.
don't be surprised if i show up one of these days. i'm taking all the risk because i love you, i love you, and i love you.
always,
ely
april 24,1944
my darling,
i'm home once more on awol (it' got to be) and everything's fine except that you're not at the door to welcome me. i've got to go back to the mountains tomorrow and maybe in a week's time our outfit will be down lowlands. it will be harder to escape then because all the big bosses will be with us in the same camp. however, i'll move heaven and earth to get a furlough and come to see you.
you know, honey, i've always though that v-day will bring me one of the happiest days of my life. well, it did. but now i find out that f-day (f stands for fely) will be the happiest day of my life. darling, i could hardly wait to see you. now that the war is over, there's nothing that would be more important to me than seeing ou and loving you for always.
believe me, if i can't get a furlough by legal means, i'm coming to see you anyway, by hook or by crook. i won't care if i get a dishonorable discharge for doing so, but i've got to see you somehow. besides, my one ambition now - of course next to having you become as mrs. me - is to get out of the army and be a civilian again. so it won't really make much of a difference if i got discharged on your account.
don't be surprised if i show up one of these days. i'm taking all the risk because i love you, i love you, and i love you.
always,
ely
Letters: chapter 3 part 2
in the field
july 16, 1945
dearest fely,
i got your letter of the 4th and of course it made me very happy.
we have advanced a long way since i wrote my last letter and we are now in lepanto. part of this town is still in enemy hands but we expect to drive them out completely in a few more days. there's still a lot of fighting to be done in this area as it is the jap's bataan. this is their very last stand in the whole of luzon. i'm afraid our outfit can't have a rest until we clear the area completely and it seems it will take quite a while yet especially now that the rainy season has set in. however, our morale is very high and we are very eager to push onward and onward in spite of everything because everybody is in a hurry to get this war over with and go home. here's hoping they won't send us to china after this!
to give you an idea of how i've spent the last few months, i've been living in foxholes ever since the 1st of april. i guess i'll feel very uneasy when i go back to live in a real house and lie on a soft bed again. i've lost a lot of weight too because i just can't eat this army food anymore aside from the hard work and constant strain of fighting. however, when everything's quiet as the day ends, i find a lot of solace and happiness in the thought that somewhere somebody like you is waiting for me. it makes me forget there's a war on for a while until i hear our sentry's rifle firing at a suspicious movement among the bushes. yes, even out here on the front up in the mountains there are moments of peace and quiet. sometimes we pick up beautiful music on our radio. the only trouble is that such moments don't last. there are so many things to remind one that he's fighting a war. it's only when one falls asleep that everything is quiet and peaceful that is if the japs don't come creeping up and stage a banzai attack. well, such is war and the best thing one can do is to be realistic and do his share in winning it as soon as possible.
i'm so glad to know that you went to baguio and met my folks. it's too bad i couldn't be there to meet you. i'm also very happy that your parents don't object to your marrying me. i was sure they'd understand. as far as i'm concerned i'm willing to have it the way they want. afterall what really matter is that we get married without having to displease anyone.
(i'm watching our planes bomb the japs right now and i'm writing this letter between dives)
darling, i guess i'll have to stop now. the planes have stopped bombing and the boys will go forward and there's work to do. i'll write you again soon.
well, so long honey and may God be with you always. i love you, i love you and - i love you.
yours,
ely
july 16, 1945
dearest fely,
i got your letter of the 4th and of course it made me very happy.
we have advanced a long way since i wrote my last letter and we are now in lepanto. part of this town is still in enemy hands but we expect to drive them out completely in a few more days. there's still a lot of fighting to be done in this area as it is the jap's bataan. this is their very last stand in the whole of luzon. i'm afraid our outfit can't have a rest until we clear the area completely and it seems it will take quite a while yet especially now that the rainy season has set in. however, our morale is very high and we are very eager to push onward and onward in spite of everything because everybody is in a hurry to get this war over with and go home. here's hoping they won't send us to china after this!
to give you an idea of how i've spent the last few months, i've been living in foxholes ever since the 1st of april. i guess i'll feel very uneasy when i go back to live in a real house and lie on a soft bed again. i've lost a lot of weight too because i just can't eat this army food anymore aside from the hard work and constant strain of fighting. however, when everything's quiet as the day ends, i find a lot of solace and happiness in the thought that somewhere somebody like you is waiting for me. it makes me forget there's a war on for a while until i hear our sentry's rifle firing at a suspicious movement among the bushes. yes, even out here on the front up in the mountains there are moments of peace and quiet. sometimes we pick up beautiful music on our radio. the only trouble is that such moments don't last. there are so many things to remind one that he's fighting a war. it's only when one falls asleep that everything is quiet and peaceful that is if the japs don't come creeping up and stage a banzai attack. well, such is war and the best thing one can do is to be realistic and do his share in winning it as soon as possible.
i'm so glad to know that you went to baguio and met my folks. it's too bad i couldn't be there to meet you. i'm also very happy that your parents don't object to your marrying me. i was sure they'd understand. as far as i'm concerned i'm willing to have it the way they want. afterall what really matter is that we get married without having to displease anyone.
(i'm watching our planes bomb the japs right now and i'm writing this letter between dives)
darling, i guess i'll have to stop now. the planes have stopped bombing and the boys will go forward and there's work to do. i'll write you again soon.
well, so long honey and may God be with you always. i love you, i love you and - i love you.
yours,
ely
Letters: chapter 3 part 3
in the field
july 26, 1945
my dear fely,
i promised to write you as soon as we took mankayan. we took mankayan several days ago but i wasn't able to write immediately because after mankayan fell things happened so fast that we have advanced many kilometers beyond it to capture a very important highway junction. in doing so, we drove the japs into what i believe to be the last pocket in the whole of luzon. it may take only a few more days to finish the campaign once and for all. of course this fills me with joy knowing that i can come to you when the war is over but this happy thought is somehow mared by the memory of my comrades and buddies who weren't as fortunate as i was. i salute them and i am extremely grateful to God for seeing me thru until now. darling, please help me in my thanksgiving prayers even as you prayed Him for my safety. i know He has answered your prayers and mine and it has to be the two of us too to thank Him. and let us pray for one more thing - that God may grant us more of His grace, even just a little, and allow us to fulfill our dreams and give us a chance to help build and live in a world of peace and justice.
this is the first time in a long while that i can afford to let my mind wander off from the grim business of fighting and killing, and i have an urge to talk and talk about so many things - serious things. you see, i'm no longer the crazy fool that you knew me to be. this war and the circumstances of my life have sobered me up a lot and now it seems to me that i've gone quite too far on the other and serious side of the fence. how i wish we were together now so i could talk and talk and know that there is someone who'll listen and understand.
i think i better end here before i get carried away. as it is, there isn't any paper to write on where i am aside from these 3 sheets that i've been saving specially for this letter. may God be with you always. my best regards to your parents. i end as usual saying: i love you, i love you and i love you.
always,
ely
to be continued...
july 26, 1945
my dear fely,
i promised to write you as soon as we took mankayan. we took mankayan several days ago but i wasn't able to write immediately because after mankayan fell things happened so fast that we have advanced many kilometers beyond it to capture a very important highway junction. in doing so, we drove the japs into what i believe to be the last pocket in the whole of luzon. it may take only a few more days to finish the campaign once and for all. of course this fills me with joy knowing that i can come to you when the war is over but this happy thought is somehow mared by the memory of my comrades and buddies who weren't as fortunate as i was. i salute them and i am extremely grateful to God for seeing me thru until now. darling, please help me in my thanksgiving prayers even as you prayed Him for my safety. i know He has answered your prayers and mine and it has to be the two of us too to thank Him. and let us pray for one more thing - that God may grant us more of His grace, even just a little, and allow us to fulfill our dreams and give us a chance to help build and live in a world of peace and justice.
this is the first time in a long while that i can afford to let my mind wander off from the grim business of fighting and killing, and i have an urge to talk and talk about so many things - serious things. you see, i'm no longer the crazy fool that you knew me to be. this war and the circumstances of my life have sobered me up a lot and now it seems to me that i've gone quite too far on the other and serious side of the fence. how i wish we were together now so i could talk and talk and know that there is someone who'll listen and understand.
i think i better end here before i get carried away. as it is, there isn't any paper to write on where i am aside from these 3 sheets that i've been saving specially for this letter. may God be with you always. my best regards to your parents. i end as usual saying: i love you, i love you and i love you.
always,
ely
to be continued...
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Letters: chapter 2 part 1
baguio
july 31, 1944
my dear fely,
it's awfully nice of you to write again and i don't know how to thank you. you're truly one in a million and i'm sure no number of words that i can say can express even the shadow of my gratitude. it's so big and deep it's surpassed only by your kindness.
fely, how can you ever doubt my wanting you? you know what a hell i've gone thru and it's only natural for me to seek someone who is tried and true. to tell you frankly i had to swallow my pride to come to you, but i knew it was the only way that i could recapture happiness if only to know that you're harboring no ill-feelings towards me. you can't imagine how much brighter my outlook is now that you've assured me of your sympathy and understandings. if there's any woman really worth a man's love, loyalty, and affection that woman can't be anyone but you. i don't have to actually see you to know that you're the only one who holds the key to my box of happiness.
of course, if while i was astray, you have compromised yourself with another man, then i won't dare worm my way in. to be a bother to you and war your life is not my wish. to see you happy and contented is my ida of happiness i had my chance once but i mad a miserable failure and i'm aware that i no longer hold first rights to your affections.
however, all my life i'll be saying a prayer for you everyday and let's hope that we'll live long enough to see the day when you'll allow me to administer personally to your whims and happiness. to me, that will be the day of days.
here's my love and please don't forget me to your ma and pa.
always,
ely
july 31, 1944
my dear fely,
it's awfully nice of you to write again and i don't know how to thank you. you're truly one in a million and i'm sure no number of words that i can say can express even the shadow of my gratitude. it's so big and deep it's surpassed only by your kindness.
fely, how can you ever doubt my wanting you? you know what a hell i've gone thru and it's only natural for me to seek someone who is tried and true. to tell you frankly i had to swallow my pride to come to you, but i knew it was the only way that i could recapture happiness if only to know that you're harboring no ill-feelings towards me. you can't imagine how much brighter my outlook is now that you've assured me of your sympathy and understandings. if there's any woman really worth a man's love, loyalty, and affection that woman can't be anyone but you. i don't have to actually see you to know that you're the only one who holds the key to my box of happiness.
of course, if while i was astray, you have compromised yourself with another man, then i won't dare worm my way in. to be a bother to you and war your life is not my wish. to see you happy and contented is my ida of happiness i had my chance once but i mad a miserable failure and i'm aware that i no longer hold first rights to your affections.
however, all my life i'll be saying a prayer for you everyday and let's hope that we'll live long enough to see the day when you'll allow me to administer personally to your whims and happiness. to me, that will be the day of days.
here's my love and please don't forget me to your ma and pa.
always,
ely
Letters: chapter 2 part 2
baguio
december 9, 1944
darling fely,
i just got your letter and you can imagine how happy it made me feel. somehow it didn't come as a surprise at all - it seems that i felt that your love was there all the time even during those years that i was compelled to forget you. there's absolutely no doubt now that you and i were made for each other and i hope that God will spare both of us so that we will have the chance to be happy together when things are alright again. i'm glad to tell you that if nothing goes wrong, i'll get my divorce as soon as the judge comes to town. he is not here at present. and then i'll be free - free to come to you. in view of the uncertainty of the times, i often occupy myself with dreaming of our future which promises so much provided that we survive. i can just picture how happy our life together would be and if fate had intended that you or i should go before we had the chance to enjoy it, then i'll still be happy knowing that i had someone who loved me even after so much heartache and so long a separation. the knowledge of your feelings towards me has done a lot to restore my faith in human beings. before i had found you again, i thought that people generally can't be trusted. they're only good to you when they know they can get something in return. and because of this breaking of my faith, i started to become selfish and tricky just as i thought others were - and i was right for as the people around me were concerned. but fortunately your love was there watching and guiding me all the time and it led me to where i can be happy once again. because you've shown me that one can love and give without any thought of reward - in fact, in you case, it wasn't only the absence of any reward, but you were left deeply hurt besides. and still here you are - giving some more. the only difference now is that i'll do everything in my power to see to it that you'll get your reward even if you'll not ask for it - so God help me.
so long, sweetheart and may God keep you. i'm praying for a speedy reunion and please remember that i pray for you (written here is part of the letter which blurred out and is now unreadable)
yours always,
ely
P.S. i'm sorry to inform you that charing with hing's father died recently.
december 9, 1944
darling fely,
i just got your letter and you can imagine how happy it made me feel. somehow it didn't come as a surprise at all - it seems that i felt that your love was there all the time even during those years that i was compelled to forget you. there's absolutely no doubt now that you and i were made for each other and i hope that God will spare both of us so that we will have the chance to be happy together when things are alright again. i'm glad to tell you that if nothing goes wrong, i'll get my divorce as soon as the judge comes to town. he is not here at present. and then i'll be free - free to come to you. in view of the uncertainty of the times, i often occupy myself with dreaming of our future which promises so much provided that we survive. i can just picture how happy our life together would be and if fate had intended that you or i should go before we had the chance to enjoy it, then i'll still be happy knowing that i had someone who loved me even after so much heartache and so long a separation. the knowledge of your feelings towards me has done a lot to restore my faith in human beings. before i had found you again, i thought that people generally can't be trusted. they're only good to you when they know they can get something in return. and because of this breaking of my faith, i started to become selfish and tricky just as i thought others were - and i was right for as the people around me were concerned. but fortunately your love was there watching and guiding me all the time and it led me to where i can be happy once again. because you've shown me that one can love and give without any thought of reward - in fact, in you case, it wasn't only the absence of any reward, but you were left deeply hurt besides. and still here you are - giving some more. the only difference now is that i'll do everything in my power to see to it that you'll get your reward even if you'll not ask for it - so God help me.
so long, sweetheart and may God keep you. i'm praying for a speedy reunion and please remember that i pray for you (written here is part of the letter which blurred out and is now unreadable)
yours always,
ely
P.S. i'm sorry to inform you that charing with hing's father died recently.
Letters: chapter 2 part 3
1st bn cp, 66th inf, pa
april 10, 1945
my dear fely,
i don't know whether you got my first letter written in the mountains or not, but in any case here i am again. i've just come down from the mountains with the battalion and we are now working with american forces on the drive towards (part removed). japs are still thick in our area but our boys are slowly pushing them back and still we expect to be in (part removed) in a week, or two weeks at the longest.
after being in the mountains for so long and practically left all alone to shift for ourselves and fight the japs with inferior arms and no support whatsoever, you can't imagine how it feels to be with the american army and fighting side by side with them. tis is really the time when no one can realize that freedom and liberty bind men whether they be white, black, brown or yellow more strongly than anything else. black and white can be brothers when they both are fighting for freedom. well, so much for this - we all know that there is still a war to be won and that altho most of our country has been liberated, there is still plenty to be done.
why don't you pack up and get ready to come up to (part removed)? i am inviting you and your family to join mine as soon as (part removed) will be cleaned up. you won't have to worry about anything - i'll take care of everything. of course there's nothing left standing in baguio. it has been leveled to the ground by bombs, but i'm sure that if you come we will see the same baguio that we knew - that, i'm sure, can never be erased by any man-made destruction machine. i wish you'll let me know if you are agreeable to my proposition.
by the way, in case you did'nt get my first letter, i heard that lourdes was executed by the japs. i got this information from so many sources which are reliable, and i'm afraid i believe it.
i guess this will be all for this time, and i hope you and your family are well and safe. if you'll ever care to answer this letter, address your reply as appearing on the envelope. here's my regards to you all. my love is for you exclusively.
yours,
ely
to be continued...
april 10, 1945
my dear fely,
i don't know whether you got my first letter written in the mountains or not, but in any case here i am again. i've just come down from the mountains with the battalion and we are now working with american forces on the drive towards (part removed). japs are still thick in our area but our boys are slowly pushing them back and still we expect to be in (part removed) in a week, or two weeks at the longest.
after being in the mountains for so long and practically left all alone to shift for ourselves and fight the japs with inferior arms and no support whatsoever, you can't imagine how it feels to be with the american army and fighting side by side with them. tis is really the time when no one can realize that freedom and liberty bind men whether they be white, black, brown or yellow more strongly than anything else. black and white can be brothers when they both are fighting for freedom. well, so much for this - we all know that there is still a war to be won and that altho most of our country has been liberated, there is still plenty to be done.
why don't you pack up and get ready to come up to (part removed)? i am inviting you and your family to join mine as soon as (part removed) will be cleaned up. you won't have to worry about anything - i'll take care of everything. of course there's nothing left standing in baguio. it has been leveled to the ground by bombs, but i'm sure that if you come we will see the same baguio that we knew - that, i'm sure, can never be erased by any man-made destruction machine. i wish you'll let me know if you are agreeable to my proposition.
by the way, in case you did'nt get my first letter, i heard that lourdes was executed by the japs. i got this information from so many sources which are reliable, and i'm afraid i believe it.
i guess this will be all for this time, and i hope you and your family are well and safe. if you'll ever care to answer this letter, address your reply as appearing on the envelope. here's my regards to you all. my love is for you exclusively.
yours,
ely
to be continued...
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
intro
10 chapters, 3 parts per chapter.
bale nakita ko na hiwahiwalay at watak watak ang mga pages, medyo ginawa ko na lang jigsaw puzzle. natagalan ng konti, sinimulan ko nung jan 10 ang pagbubuo at halos last week ko lang nakumpleto. muntik pa ngang sunugin buti na lang nasagip ko.
love letters yan. ng lolo ko. nung panahon ng giyera.
sa mga kaibigan ko na gusto makita ang phisical form ng letters sabihin niyo lang sa kin, pwede ko ipakita senyo kung sakali.
bale nakita ko na hiwahiwalay at watak watak ang mga pages, medyo ginawa ko na lang jigsaw puzzle. natagalan ng konti, sinimulan ko nung jan 10 ang pagbubuo at halos last week ko lang nakumpleto. muntik pa ngang sunugin buti na lang nasagip ko.
love letters yan. ng lolo ko. nung panahon ng giyera.
sa mga kaibigan ko na gusto makita ang phisical form ng letters sabihin niyo lang sa kin, pwede ko ipakita senyo kung sakali.
Letters: chapter 1 part 1
taiwan electric co.
baguio
may 18, 1944
my dear fely,
after all these years, do you mind if i pop out and say hello? the fact is that i would have written you sooner had i known where to send my letter, but it is only now that my efforts in searching have been rewarded. i wanted very very much to greet you on your birthday but i didn't know your address then. anyway, they say that it's som much better for one to be late in doing something than never at all, so now i'm saying many happy returns. hope you'll live to be a hundred.
well, fely, how has live been treating you? fine, i hope. and how are you enjoying the war? fine, too, i hope. to me, the war has brought a big change - for the better. it has made me realize what a great mistake i've made (you know what it is) and i'm now in the process of correcting it. i only hope that things won't bog down so i'll be able to gain my complete freedom - legally speaking. i mean, because there's no one who has more freedom of action as i'm having right now.
you know, fely, i spent a lot of time trying to locate you. i used to spend about three weeks of each month in manila before i finally had to take a job ( i got broke, you know) and i kept hoping and expecting to meet you sometime, but i simply didn't have any luck. i asked everyone we knew where i could find you, but they weren't able to help me. perhaps it was because i didn't have the right and was no longer worthy to be a bother to you- that's why providence refused to grant my wish. but i kept on trying and finally it was miss pugal who informed me of your address.
i hesitate to write you this note because i'm not quite sure that you'll welcome anything coming from me, but my desisre to let you know that i'm still your friend is so great that i'll risk the chance. you can be sure that i'll be praying for your success and happines always, and if this letter will only serve to convey this idea to you, then i wouldn't mind if you tore it in contempt and cursed the sender. i'm sure that i deserve it for being a cad. it happened long ago, but i can't seem to forget it and i want to tell you that i'm terribly sorry. i guess there's not much i can do but say i'm sorry. but i'm willing to charge all the misfortunes that i have and ever will suffer to paying for the great wrong that i have done. i can't even ask for your forgiveness - it is only for you to give or to deny.
but i'm reminding you of the impleasant past which i'm pretty sure you've quite forgotten and for this i'm begging your pardon. all i intended to say in the beginning was to wish you the best of luck on the occasion of your birthday, but as i kept on writing, i couldn't help but write the way i did.
i shouldn't be taking more of your time and so i'm writing finis to this letter. i hope you don't mind my saying that i feel a lot better now that i've told you something that i've been wanting to tell you for years. here's hoping i haven't bothered you. i'm closing with my very best wishes for you and your parents. may life be kind to you always.
yours,
ely
baguio
may 18, 1944
my dear fely,
after all these years, do you mind if i pop out and say hello? the fact is that i would have written you sooner had i known where to send my letter, but it is only now that my efforts in searching have been rewarded. i wanted very very much to greet you on your birthday but i didn't know your address then. anyway, they say that it's som much better for one to be late in doing something than never at all, so now i'm saying many happy returns. hope you'll live to be a hundred.
well, fely, how has live been treating you? fine, i hope. and how are you enjoying the war? fine, too, i hope. to me, the war has brought a big change - for the better. it has made me realize what a great mistake i've made (you know what it is) and i'm now in the process of correcting it. i only hope that things won't bog down so i'll be able to gain my complete freedom - legally speaking. i mean, because there's no one who has more freedom of action as i'm having right now.
you know, fely, i spent a lot of time trying to locate you. i used to spend about three weeks of each month in manila before i finally had to take a job ( i got broke, you know) and i kept hoping and expecting to meet you sometime, but i simply didn't have any luck. i asked everyone we knew where i could find you, but they weren't able to help me. perhaps it was because i didn't have the right and was no longer worthy to be a bother to you- that's why providence refused to grant my wish. but i kept on trying and finally it was miss pugal who informed me of your address.
i hesitate to write you this note because i'm not quite sure that you'll welcome anything coming from me, but my desisre to let you know that i'm still your friend is so great that i'll risk the chance. you can be sure that i'll be praying for your success and happines always, and if this letter will only serve to convey this idea to you, then i wouldn't mind if you tore it in contempt and cursed the sender. i'm sure that i deserve it for being a cad. it happened long ago, but i can't seem to forget it and i want to tell you that i'm terribly sorry. i guess there's not much i can do but say i'm sorry. but i'm willing to charge all the misfortunes that i have and ever will suffer to paying for the great wrong that i have done. i can't even ask for your forgiveness - it is only for you to give or to deny.
but i'm reminding you of the impleasant past which i'm pretty sure you've quite forgotten and for this i'm begging your pardon. all i intended to say in the beginning was to wish you the best of luck on the occasion of your birthday, but as i kept on writing, i couldn't help but write the way i did.
i shouldn't be taking more of your time and so i'm writing finis to this letter. i hope you don't mind my saying that i feel a lot better now that i've told you something that i've been wanting to tell you for years. here's hoping i haven't bothered you. i'm closing with my very best wishes for you and your parents. may life be kind to you always.
yours,
ely
Letters: chapter 1 part 2
baguio
may 31, 1944
my dear fely,
your letter came way up beyond all my expectations and i don't know how to thank you. i really didn't expect an answer, you know i have been very happy since i got it and i'm living in the sunshine once more. what you have written makes me feel as if i've known no sorrows or regrets throughout all the years, and it seems that it was only yesterday when i was last with you, laughing and happy.
you're the same old sweet fely, very understanding and very forgiving, and i'm thanking my stars that it has been my very good fortune to have known someone like you. you said that you didn't know what i meant by my "great mistake". well, what else could it be but getting married and wasting five of the best years of my live living with the wrong woman? lourdes thinks that i'm the wrong man too, and from her angle she's right- therefore, we have decided to do the only thing that is fair for both of us. we don't live together anymore and we're getting a divorce. what a big fool i was. all the time i could have married a very nice and decent girl and yet i had to choose someone whom even her own family predicted won't make a good wife. but that all belongs tot the past and it is best forgotten. it won't do any good crying over it. and besides, judging from your letter, you're still my friend so there's really not much that was lost. how very fortunate it is that you are the sort who can forgive and forget. if you must know, you have made it much easier for me by your attitude. i beg of you to please let me do something to make up for the past.
i'll tell charing to get in touch with you when i see her. then she may invite you up here and we can all see each other again. from what i gathered the last time i met her, she's doing fine. she asked me if i knew where you were, but i was in the same flight myself then. now, it's all different and it's like old times again.
i'm indeed glad to learn that life is treating you very kindly. your problem of how long we can keep it up is also everybody else's problem, and so i guess we shouldn't worry our heads off about it. we'll always find a way and we'll manage somehow. we only have to think of the people who are in the very midst of the war to feel reassured that we are still lucky. our troubles are not even half of theirs and yet they are still alive and kicking. all we need to do is to keep our faith in our God and do some hard honest work and we are sure to get by.
i guess this letter is lengthy enough and i'll talk some more next time. i'm dying to know what you've been doing all these years, and please write a chapter of your autobiography for me as your next letter, will you? i'm sure it will be very pleasant reading for me. regards to you and the family but keep most for yourself.
yours,
ely
P.S. thank the postman for me for delivering my letter inspite of the wrong address.
may 31, 1944
my dear fely,
your letter came way up beyond all my expectations and i don't know how to thank you. i really didn't expect an answer, you know i have been very happy since i got it and i'm living in the sunshine once more. what you have written makes me feel as if i've known no sorrows or regrets throughout all the years, and it seems that it was only yesterday when i was last with you, laughing and happy.
you're the same old sweet fely, very understanding and very forgiving, and i'm thanking my stars that it has been my very good fortune to have known someone like you. you said that you didn't know what i meant by my "great mistake". well, what else could it be but getting married and wasting five of the best years of my live living with the wrong woman? lourdes thinks that i'm the wrong man too, and from her angle she's right- therefore, we have decided to do the only thing that is fair for both of us. we don't live together anymore and we're getting a divorce. what a big fool i was. all the time i could have married a very nice and decent girl and yet i had to choose someone whom even her own family predicted won't make a good wife. but that all belongs tot the past and it is best forgotten. it won't do any good crying over it. and besides, judging from your letter, you're still my friend so there's really not much that was lost. how very fortunate it is that you are the sort who can forgive and forget. if you must know, you have made it much easier for me by your attitude. i beg of you to please let me do something to make up for the past.
i'll tell charing to get in touch with you when i see her. then she may invite you up here and we can all see each other again. from what i gathered the last time i met her, she's doing fine. she asked me if i knew where you were, but i was in the same flight myself then. now, it's all different and it's like old times again.
i'm indeed glad to learn that life is treating you very kindly. your problem of how long we can keep it up is also everybody else's problem, and so i guess we shouldn't worry our heads off about it. we'll always find a way and we'll manage somehow. we only have to think of the people who are in the very midst of the war to feel reassured that we are still lucky. our troubles are not even half of theirs and yet they are still alive and kicking. all we need to do is to keep our faith in our God and do some hard honest work and we are sure to get by.
i guess this letter is lengthy enough and i'll talk some more next time. i'm dying to know what you've been doing all these years, and please write a chapter of your autobiography for me as your next letter, will you? i'm sure it will be very pleasant reading for me. regards to you and the family but keep most for yourself.
yours,
ely
P.S. thank the postman for me for delivering my letter inspite of the wrong address.
Letters: chapter 1 part 3
taiwan electric co.
baguio
july 8, 1944
my dear fely,
it had taken me quite long to decide to write again because in your last letter you expressed the doubt whether we should keep on with our correspondence. but i thought it over and decided that i wouldn't be the one to stop it. afterall, i wrote the first letter and i'm going to write the last one too. if you don't wish to correspond with me anymore, then i'll understand and you won't have to answer this letter.
fely, just in case this will be the last you'll hear from me - that is, if you'll write finis to our pleasant (at least it is on my part) exchange of letters - then i hope you won't mind if i make this letter quite a long one. please don't get bored and lend a sympathetic ear (or is it "eye") to me. i'll be very thankful if you do.
thru all the years, i had been looking for someone in whom i can confide all my troubles but there didn't seem to be anyone whom i could annoy so. perhaps i didn't have the right to bother anybody, for that matter. of course, not for a single moment did i forget you, the sweet-natured and very understanding person that you are, and i can't explain it but i felt quite sure that i could com to you crying like a baby and you would soothe and comfort me. i wish to make it clear here that it was not conceit at all on my part - i just felt so, that's all, and i never had the same feeling with regards to anyone else. you know, fely, i'm not the type that would let pride dominate my other feelings, and so i did my best to locate you because i very well knew that in hou i could find the very thing that was lacking in my life. quite a selfish reason for wanting to find you, i must admit, but at the same time, my desire to come to you humbly and ask for a thousand pardons for what had passed was as sincere and as strong as the reason. any other girl in your place will certainly send to h- someone with a nerve like me coming to you like this after i had done something which was most unfair. no one can really be repentant unless he has the courage to ask for forgiveness from the one he has wronged, and that is the reason why i am coming to you now with bowed head and a humble heart.
besides, i believe that one should admit a mistake because admission is the first step in the process of correcting it. how i wish that i could be with you so i can prove how much i mean these words. i know that telling you over and over again that i'm sorry will get tiresome and monotonous for you, so i'm praying that the day will come when i can be where you are and show you how i really feel.
since you think it improper for us to be writing each other, i am going to close this letter with one request, and that is for you to please believe me and if i should have the good fortune of meeting you again someday, will you please allow me to make amends? but should we never meet again, these being very uncertain, please know that i am thanking heaven for people like you and that i shall remember you to the last moment. i shall be praying for the best for you and your family.
yours always,
ely
to be continued...
baguio
july 8, 1944
my dear fely,
it had taken me quite long to decide to write again because in your last letter you expressed the doubt whether we should keep on with our correspondence. but i thought it over and decided that i wouldn't be the one to stop it. afterall, i wrote the first letter and i'm going to write the last one too. if you don't wish to correspond with me anymore, then i'll understand and you won't have to answer this letter.
fely, just in case this will be the last you'll hear from me - that is, if you'll write finis to our pleasant (at least it is on my part) exchange of letters - then i hope you won't mind if i make this letter quite a long one. please don't get bored and lend a sympathetic ear (or is it "eye") to me. i'll be very thankful if you do.
thru all the years, i had been looking for someone in whom i can confide all my troubles but there didn't seem to be anyone whom i could annoy so. perhaps i didn't have the right to bother anybody, for that matter. of course, not for a single moment did i forget you, the sweet-natured and very understanding person that you are, and i can't explain it but i felt quite sure that i could com to you crying like a baby and you would soothe and comfort me. i wish to make it clear here that it was not conceit at all on my part - i just felt so, that's all, and i never had the same feeling with regards to anyone else. you know, fely, i'm not the type that would let pride dominate my other feelings, and so i did my best to locate you because i very well knew that in hou i could find the very thing that was lacking in my life. quite a selfish reason for wanting to find you, i must admit, but at the same time, my desire to come to you humbly and ask for a thousand pardons for what had passed was as sincere and as strong as the reason. any other girl in your place will certainly send to h- someone with a nerve like me coming to you like this after i had done something which was most unfair. no one can really be repentant unless he has the courage to ask for forgiveness from the one he has wronged, and that is the reason why i am coming to you now with bowed head and a humble heart.
besides, i believe that one should admit a mistake because admission is the first step in the process of correcting it. how i wish that i could be with you so i can prove how much i mean these words. i know that telling you over and over again that i'm sorry will get tiresome and monotonous for you, so i'm praying that the day will come when i can be where you are and show you how i really feel.
since you think it improper for us to be writing each other, i am going to close this letter with one request, and that is for you to please believe me and if i should have the good fortune of meeting you again someday, will you please allow me to make amends? but should we never meet again, these being very uncertain, please know that i am thanking heaven for people like you and that i shall remember you to the last moment. i shall be praying for the best for you and your family.
yours always,
ely
to be continued...